I'M HOME!!!
yes, because toby is stupid and attract freak accidents like no other, i was stuck in a hospital for week and 2 days -_- you should read the journals i wrote then... i swear, so many complications... not to mention the whole freak accident thing!
i was hopping... on one leg... really quickly (it was a relay and no offense but my team sucked) so i was going ultra quickly and actually made up time... until WHAM! i heard a crack sorta noise then i was on the floor in pain... now i'm going to get kinda ... blaming-ish.. i dunno, i mean it's not the people's fault but dagnabit! yeah, so they (the people at badminton) was convinced that i had strained my thigh muscle, only i kept telling them i couldn't stand and stuff... Kelvin was nice enough to lift me to a chair so i could suffer while sitting instead of suffering on the floor (that i'm actually quite grateful for)
they kept telling me to stretch it out, to go onto my knees and sit back! my kneecap felt like it was swimming in my leg! and not to mention that my leg would collasp if i even tried putting weight on it -_- but they were convinced and i guess since i didn't tell them i heard a crack sound it's not theri fault... but what drove me insane was the fact that this other guy kept saying how it won't get better unless i stretch it out, well, i'm freaking sorry but you try "stretching" out muscles that are tightened around your broken femur and then we'll talk! <-- no, you can't hear the bitterness at all ¬¬
yeah... so was half dragged, half hopped to the car, the ride home was actually okay since it involved sitting and bracing the leg... so nothing moved and i was happy... getting out of the car was another question, i refused, i joked about staying in there but i really don't think i would've moved... finally my dad made me move so we tried but my leg still couldn't support weight and was very, very swollen... him and my mom were worried that it might be more serious then a sprain but didn't think it was broken (i mean who would?) so it was off to emergency!
emergency was fun... in a painful and boring sort of way... i lay on an ER bed in pain, just lying there for like 3 hours -_- yay for ER... leg finally got seen by a doctor, painful x-ray process and then it was off to get casted... i think i lay some more while waiting for my operation... can't remember, but IV hurt going in, a lot >< and they bleed too... yeah, so operation was okay, wake up and everything's a blur... i was so out of it the first 2-3 days in hospital were just blurs of things... so we'll skip that...
they had an IV in my right hand, after op it was magically switched to my left hand... go bizarreness... so now i have two beautiful and painful holes in my hands... was on IV for a while, then they took me off, took out the IV too... but found out i had low hemaglobin, which was why i was sluggish and overall dazed to the world... and might i add pain pump rocks except for the weird morphine induced day/night dreams that i had o_O that or i'm more crazy then i though.... so hello blood transfusion... in yet another new IV on my right hand again!
this time they were smart and kept it incase i needed it again... only it closed up or something so out it came -_- i need to show Rain my collection of bruises and holes from blood drawing and IV inputting, they weren't even from the actual accident, don't get me started on the scary looking staples in my leg >< eeewwwwww!
yeah, the whole like first week was more or less me lying in a daze for the whole day... then when i started feeling better i was antsy and now i'm finally home, the end....
on a slightly happy note, no school! but on a depressing note, a lot of hw to catch up on >< not happy! now i will root through my overflowing email account... note to self, must get off of some mailing lists -_-
OMG!!! O_O Izumi from Fullmoon was played by Ogata Megumi!!!! *__* yes... Ecoli thought i was weird when i kept going on about that... i was just... surprised.... yes... well, at least i know why his voice sounded familiar!
it's really not fair, some people are disgustingly good on oekakis... disgustingly good! >< like they're mostly drawing with a mouse and stifll 10 billion times better then me -_- *cough*kann, kurot, random person*cough* it's actually quite depressing -_-;;
nuuuoooo!!! falkenblackhand said he was going help me get a ps2 but now he says that his mom won't let him go!! >< nuuuoooo!!!! it's not dangerous! i swear, i went last week, heck i even ate there! i'm still alive and kicking... granted it hasn't been 10 days yet... ¬¬ don't tell your mom that... i don't think that last point would convince her...
now i'm off to do something... oh! i finished a tentative PoT Addict layout, here's a screencap of it since its not working or uploaded yet... need to get more content before i get it up... -_- i'm so slow at these things... thinking of getting a bbs thing for it... but then i don't know if people would visit/draw on it... so yeah.... screencap here
ah, Annie is such a sweetie!!! *love you!* she got me a package of plastic covers for my chinese Get Backers!!! soooo nice of her!!!! must do something really nice for her!!! drew her an ooooglay picture -_- must do something that conveys how much i appreciate it... not the opposite... well, gonna go read my english novel so that i can get together and work on it on sat ;_; my beautiful long weekend!!! where have you gone?!?
later!
many people i didn't know are depressed are... and many people want to kill themselves... o_O maybe it's just me... but i never knew people were that depressed... i dunno... it's like it's everyday conversation topics with high school students... young highschool students... like Ecoli-water... O_O
like this girl in my class said that 3 out of 4 people are depressed... or maybe it was 9 out of 10, anyhoo, the odds are pretty high... i guess it's just me... i know how much pressure there is, i know how the world seems so dark and bad and stuff... but @_@ it still shocks me how so many people consider killing themselves... not that i'm saying it's "bad" or it's "wrong", ultimately it's the person's decision and i'm sure they have good reasons... but to me it seems like such... like a waste... okay, being ignorant isn't bliss, it's just stupid... but being depressed over stuff you mostly can't really change won't help either... and the people who have chemical imbalances are different and since i don't know much about that i won't get into there...
lol, it's like Mr. Bahl told me once, he was like "under that 'i don't really care' attitude you really want to learn" to me... i never knew i gave off an "i don't really have a care in the world" sorta attitude.. maybe that's why my mom was always nagging at me to not go about things half-heartedly... i really do like learning... and i really liked his class... but it's just to me, if i'm going to get depressed from the classes, then what's the point of taking them? i'd mostly learn better and i'd want to learn if i didn't hate the class *cough*english*cough*
enough ranting... onto something brighter, i uploaded the Tezuka picture i coloured in actual colours instead of black and something else so you can all revel in my ooooglay art! sorry i'm too lazy to make a thumbnail... his arm is so ugly >< i coloured it in oC and yeah... i don't like colouring in it... i also forgot he had the arm and chest showing so i lost the colours and had to get them again... but somehow the chest turned out better o_O stupid arm drove me insane and i finally gave up ><
the weekend was fun, went to Rain's and stayed till very late... had to drive home really fast... ^^;; not very safe of me... i drove faster than Adina's father! and he drives pretty fast... granted he's more experienced then me ^^;; oooo! i saw the dub Saiyuki! will rant/comment about that tomorrow, must watch more Hunter tonight! <-- even though i've read waaaay past the eps i'm watching now... oh well, they're cute when animated!
x_x tired... very tired... *slides chair over to grab glasses* <-- nyah! Rain i do wear my glasses! i got a grand total of like 3 hours of sleep... stupid recycling project... and it doesn't even look that good -_- i want to burn it! it's very flammable ^^;;
i got my english short story back!!! and i did good on it! what i learned, i have no personal experiences that can be related to general universal themes and that writing a short story in one night doesn't mean you'll get a bad mark ^_^ very happy from that right now, unlike the week before where i was depressed from the bad prose analysis mark.
my computer is either low on memory or something is funky... my programs are laggy and so's winamp sometimes >< it's annoying, i might restart the computer... but i run the risk of losing my motivation to work... i've actually been working on the PoT site ^_^
nuuooo >< just realized that i'm a stupid idiot that should be skewered with a tablet pen >< drew a picture of Tezuka (which doesn't look like him -_-) that should've been coloured in black, just like the other 5 i've been working on.. stupid Toby coloured him blue and brown O_O yes, i'm so smart... well, i've decided to use him for the opening layout though... so some good has come out of this... i guess...
open canvas is nice for drawing on... or at least i like it more than drawing on Photoshop... o_O maybe i'm weird... colouring and stuff is another thing >< i should've coloured it in Photoshop but i'm an idiot and didn't... oh well, i might upload the picture later... either that or it can be viewed when i get the PoT site up... <--- aka, close to never ^^';;;
need to think of layout design now... opting for simple, codeless design... ah, tables are my friends!
i actually had a nice long post written... but my connection was disconnected and then my computer froze... -_- so i lost it... and i can't remember it well enough to rewrite it so it's gone forever! nuuuoooo ><
i made 8 more sheets of paper @_@ it's tiring cleaning up after... and annoying too ¬¬ have to make some red/pink tomorrow, have to wake up early tomorrow to go to Business Depot or Home Depot for clear packaging tape... oh and a scrapbook from Business Depot... don't want to wake up x_x
watched PoT 67, Tezuka's "battle" with Atobe has been drawn out for another episode -_-;; dangit let Ryoma play! oh well, it was funny, me and Ecoli would burst out laughing about the weirdest things... like Tezuka's arm is hurting and whatnot and it's rather dangerous for him to play but he, being the bull-headed guy he is sometimes, goes back to play anyways. Oishi runs in front of him, reminiscent of what he did once during their first year at Seigaku's tennis club, and says "Tezuka" -- we burst out laughing ^^;;
now i will kill more time looking at other people's fanart, trying to figure out how to cg like Kurot and perhaps play with an oekaki... oooo, i finished colouring Rebel Oishi! ^_^
