ya know, i always get so depressed after looking at Ruaki's awe-inspiring fanart *_* it's so unfair how incredibly she rocks in drawing >< i love her cg style! and her hair detail is to die for ;_; i want her skill! if icould draw like her i would die a happy... student... o_O
finally got Get Backers 16, which means i can burn 14-16 and free up more hard drive... then i have to burn Jose's Shaman King... i'm running out of cds >< and my computer keeps freezing and dying on me, i think it's the memory... but not sure... going to try to burn as much as possible and see if Ecoli will indulge me and delete some of the mp3s... and i'll try to get rid of some as well...
on a brighter note, my art is coming along well... except for the fact that i have to do the whole history research thing tomorrow -_- that and i have to write my short story... hopefully tonight so that i can type it and email it to Rain for him to edit my horrible syntax and rip apart generally >< then i have to print it and see if my mom will edit my grammar as well... print another copy and drag it to school to hunt down people to edit it there...though it's kinda late... but yeah... maybe get Cat to look it over and tell me what she thinks.. then i'll have warning on what i might get ><
english will be the death of me... i think death by SARS would be more compassionate ¬.¬ and i will rant about Mr.Silver now *begin rant mode* i really don't dislike teachers, even teachers who give me bad marks... i mean i was doing mediocre in English last year and in Mod West but i really like Mr. Bieman and Mr. Bahl... but i just really dislike Mr. Silver... or i dislike him sometimes... especially last friday when he kept emphasizing how the prose analysis test he gave us was sooooo easy >< well, excuuuuse me! if it was so freaking easy why did half the class fail? i somehow doubt half the class wanted to fail and get bad midterms and not get into our university of our choice! maybe it seems really easy to you since you've been doing english for like the past 20 years, maybe it really is easy and we're all stupid but re-emphasizing that fact multiple times during the class really doesn't help us learn... i'm sure we're all so depressed over our marks and how "stupid" we all are that we'll be invigorated to do amazingly well on the rest of the assignments barring we don't have another "really easy" test and all those other *gasp* courses we're taking this semester! yes, i'm sarcastic and just a bit cynical... *rant mode off*
another weird thing... everyone's been commenting on how i'm so different now o_O i dunno, i always thought i was sarcastic and loud and weird... just ask Ecoli, she'll tell you! granted i wasn't so much so at school... but then again i didn't know many people during the first few years... the cynical thing... what can i say? i'm so easily influenced *cough*cat, rain, christine, other random people *cough*
now i will make my way upstairs, shower and ponder over my story... stupid short story >< i need to do freaking amazing on it now since i all but failed my english test -_- ironicly it depressed me so much i spent the whole of friday night playing Eowyn's side quest... yes, instead of working on the stoyr, let's just say that's my way of going "nyah!" to english which i hate >P
Rain, "Wakai-chan"? o_O i'm older then you! granted only by like 5 months or something, but if i'm young then what are you?
and you do change it alot! i haven't touched mine in ages ^^;; i want to watch Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon again, i can barely remember it >< i just remember it was good and i liked it ^_^ oooo, you wanna borrow "Hero" whenever my mom gets it back or if we already have it back you can borrow it! it's really pretty... the story is kinda flat and it's rather amusing how they justify the emperor's actions and stuff... but mainly it's pretty, very pretty... in a way, too pretty... like a strained pretty at times... but yeah, dismissing all that, the fight scenes and the cinematography is gorgeous *_*
i should be writing my english essay... i really should, i need a draft for him to edit tomorrow... amazingly i would rather do my art... granted i've always liked art more then english... writing is not my forte -_- oh well, at least i have some initiative for art... that's always good!
ack, dinner time! will try to go on icq later!
ah, Get Backers 18! dangit, they just hinted at the Kazuki/Jubei battle >< i wanted to see their flashback! Kazuki was such a girl ^^ but i guess that's why people love him! Kurot, it's all your fault, now i'm a Kazuki fan too! not that i didn't like him before, when i think about it, he seems like the sorta character i would like o_O but i did like the flashback scene in the manga, it was cute!
my scanner is being weird... well, the funky groaning sorta noises are normal... but the link keeps dying -_- so i have to replug the USB cable from time to time, even if my mom just used it this afternoon! and my inked lines are ooooglay >< and you can barely see them in the scan preview... they better not be that light when it's finished scanning!
ah, PoT fansite... i need to make some stuff for it... and hopefully i'll be committed enough to not just ditch it later... i want to make winamp skins for it, there's barely any PoT skinz yet! but knowing me (i still haven't finished the D skin ><) i'll never get around to making/finishing PoT skinz... and i still need a layout... and i use a lot of "..." instead of full stops or whatnot o_O
Rain, get an art site up! i might get unlazy and could help you scan... maybe... ^^;; Kurot, your site is gorgeous and so is your art >< so jealous! teach me how to cg!! and Kann, i hate you! your inked stuff is amazing *_* update more!
you know what all artists should do when they need an ego boost? either go to the US univerisities during Portfolio Day or go to the ROM and draw in the dead stuffed animal sections, little kids run amok there @_@ but they are quite cute and will give your poor self-confidence a big boost... granted you have to understand their weird compliments ^^
i had this one kid say "wow, that's so good! even my grandfather can't draw like that!" other than the kids kinda getting in the way of the actual drawing aspect it was quite cute, the french kids seemed more... subdued... and i actually understood a little bit of what they said! *gasp* my french isn't all gone yet!
short story -_- *grabs something sharp and stabs repeatedly* i have an idea... but it's more of a creative story then a short story... maybe i can try writing it, give it to my english teacher and if he likes it YAY, if not, i need to put some underlying themes in it ^^ right now i'm hoping maybe i can write it and he'll find some underlying themes for me... i highly doubt that'd work though >< dang!
well, it's off to attempt to read my novel... it was putting me to sleep... i think it's just me, it's supposed to be a good book... o_O
the first day of March Break (it's monday and to me it's the first day of March Break, not friday) i spent sleeping... then reading... planning something... and then present shopping ^^;; yes, what a dull life i lead!
me and Ecoli bought my mom's b-day present, early too! *gasp* us, planning and doing something in advance! it's unheard of!! we spent waaaay too long trying to decide which teaset my mom would prefer... and the one we finally got is very very similar to the one she has now ^^;; but we both think she'd like that one the best, and i've discovered that we're very icompetant when it comes to wrapping gifts ^^ we spent a good 10-20 minutes debating how to wrap it... granted i was the one who kept changing the idea cuz i didn't want to waste paper, Ecoli just wanted to shove it into a bag and slap a card on it! finally wrapped it and now it's sitting in my room under a pile of stuff so my mom will never find it ^^
got more PoT! and another ep of Gluhen... the timing for it was soooo bad though >< or maybe it's my computer... dunno, but it was painful to watch it...
have to restart my sweater... took the old one apart -_-;; i was like finished the whole back and i took it all apart! stupid Walmart didn't have the light green i needed... need to redesign the sweater pattern now ><
apparently my weird dream about boys chasing me with long sharp objects is screaming about change in my life... university?
haven't had any weird dreams lately, i kinda miss them, they gave me something to think about... that and they're amusing to retell ^^ been trying to sleep earlier so i'll have more chances to remember my dreams... plan not quite working ^^;;
OMG, i dunno where but i remembered seeing this picture of Orlando Bloom (maybe Ecoli was looking for it online) and it suddenly struck me that he really reminds me of Zaffar O_O so i went to hunt down some pictures to see if i was just imagining things... but he really does have some resemblance to Zaffar... at least when he had the mustache/beard fuzz going on... yeah, i haven't talked with Zaffar for so long, maybe i can try messaging him sometime... i wonder if he'd be insulted or pleased if i told him Orlando Bloom reminds me him... i remember he didn't really like LotR... so he might feel insulted...
^_^ i remember talking to him one time and he was complaining how LotR was just a loooooong walk and how Star Wars was so much better... which i argued with him, granted i ended up just saying that Star Wars was a long walk too... around a giant galaxy but exactly like LotR, they wander around beating evil and of course the "good" people go through lots of trials, gets stronger and beats the "evil" forces within an inch of their life... except i must say that Star Wars as a novel was much more fun to read then LotR @_@
i've decided to start a PoT fansite! i dunno when it'll actually get up... but i know the perfect name for it! PoT Addict!! ^___^ no pot jokes!
my dream came true!!! O_O i had a dream where the authors of this fic updated early because of some reason taht i couldn't remember... and when i checked just for kicks, i found out that htey actually did update!!! it wasn't much of a chapter but it was updated!!!
that was weird, and i've had yet another weird dream... not last night though, it was the night before i think... i have to look up some dream analysis stuff later, if only so i can make fun of my dreams ^^;;
two random boys were trying to kill me... o_O i've opted to keep a book with a pen beside my bed now so that i can write down the stuff before i forget... it reminds me of when i was in HK, i had some funky dreams then too and since the room me and Ecoli were sharing was so tiny i had my backpack full of stuff on the floor at my feet. there was paper and pencil case in there and i'd scribble down the dreams before i forget and usually go back to sleep ^^;; but i had a really funky Kenshin dream that i was glad i could write down... it was very weird...
anyhoo, yeah, so i wrote down the dream even though i actually wrote it down like the night after i dreamt it, it was kinda nightmarish so i woke up but then was too tired (perhaps not quite as scary as i thought?) and decided to just go back to sleep... then i was out of the house all day and had no time to write until at night... and now onto the dream!
i can't quite remember how it began... but i was older... and seemed slightly well-dressed... more so then i usually am... it was like high class clothing or something o_O and i was looking at something in a study... and once again it's those really nice study's with like marble busts and giant floor to ceiling windows... don't ask, i don't know why either... so i'm looking at an album of coins... an album of something, and they belonged to someone i knew... a boy... i'm pretty sure the boy was younger then me... and the boy died or something... maybe just left, can't remember (i sound like a mother o_O)
suddenly, two other boys burst in and confront me about something i can't remember... they want to kill me too... because of something i did, i'm thinking it might be the boy that's not there but who's album i have... anyways, one of the boys gets hold of something stick-like (i'm thinking sword but not sure... maybe like a fireplace poker thingy) and is trying to kill me with it... the other boy cheers him on... i'm quite frightened by now and so try to run away... i go into a hall and into a room that's kinda like those waiting rooms i guess... there was a table, windows, glass doors, maybe a piano and a statue of sorts holding golf clubs i think... figuring that i'm too much of a target, i grab a golf club to defend myself with... i keep blocking and didn't hit back much but the boy was persistant... i can't remember if i tried to reason my way out or claim innocence... perhaps i knew i was responsible but didn't want to get impaled by the boy... well, i finally begin retaliating but i only hit the boy's side, trying to get him to drop the weapon and stop attacking me... but my attacks don't seem to be working, no matter how hard i swing at the boy's side...
for some reason i was very scared of killing the boy and so i didn't dare hit in on the head... ironically it seemed as if i had a memory of hurting someone/killing someone in the dream, my dream self has some memory or something preventing me from attacking the boy too viciously even though the boy's out to get me... so i try running... and then it reminded me of my old house how there were two entrances to the room and an island sort of thing you could circle around... the boy was chasing me... there was a servant or helper girl there... she seemed either scared and didn't interfere or agreed and didn't interfere... or maybe just confused and didn't interfere... i don't know... but yeah, i woke up at the chasing part... and it wasn't the usual gradually wake up, it was gasp, jerk, heart kind of pounding wake up... but not enough of a nightmare that i couldn't sleep again...
the boys struck me as being very silver too... and everything in the dream seems to my memory very cool coloured... l ike blues and greys... maybe i'm just remembering wrong... and the oddest thing second to having random dreams of boys trying to kill me and a memory inside of a dream... it seems as if i've had the dream before, the dream seemed familiar... yeah, i think i'll go look up dream analysis stuff now instead of doing my english x_X my group will kill me tomorrow...
lookie Rain! Christine managed to make our project sound so much better then we managed ^^;;
actually, Christine's take on our project is broader then what we had originally planned... that and she said it so well! it almost doesn't sound like she's talking about our project... maybe Ms.Silver would've liked it better if we'd worded it that well... i dunno... she didn't seem to be against our idea in the beginning.. granted the way that me and Rain finished it does leave something to be desired... it's rather... ummm... "falling apart" looking...
need to get together with english group tomorrow, which means that i have to think of more themes and stuff... and things to back them up... i hope we're productive tomorrow... although i can't really complain i'm not always that productive either...
gotta clean the computer room... there are cds everywhere... and don't even get started on the papers and binders and whatnot lying around!
